Realizations - 2018

Have you ever had one of those moments where it's just like a light bulb turned on?

Me too. Mine was both metaphorically and realistic. I replaced a ballast. For a fluorescent light bank in a bathroom, to be exact. I had been putting off for who knows how long... but I finally did it!! Yes, I have someone living with me now that uses the bathroom as their own and I hated hearing the flipping of the switch. But I set my mind to it and got it done!! I have some bruises, I was falling off the sink, because who NEEDS a step-stool?! Yeah. I do...  I ended up using my entire shin to stop from falling and hitting my noggin... Again... (the last time was quite a doozey, and that was 12 years ago...)

Anywho, I did it!! I was happy. I had completed what I set out to do. I didn't play the 'damsel in distress' card and have someone else do it for me. I, ME, did it!!! GO ME!!!

I have always thought I was a good single lady, I do things around my cute little condo that need to be done. I pay my bills. I adult. Some days, OK, months are better than others, but in the end I have a home. I have a life I live. I am happy. Well, for the most part...

A while back, maybe a month or two, I decided to buy a book... 'Girl, Was Your Face' by Rachel Hollis. And I just got around to reading it... Wow!!! I am not a huge reader, but dang, I finished this book on a round trip flight to Vegas, and to Reno. The things she talks about are not necessarily things that 'strike a cord' with me. I don't have kids. I'm not married. I don't run a company. BUT. She was, and is, a motivator, she calls things like they are. I feel like she is someone who should be my BFF! She is honest and real and I'm sure if I were to talk to her I'd be called on so much crap I say and do! Each chapter, whether it really applied or not, was like a wake-up call.

Here are my takeaways:
- I AM good enough. For work, for family, for me.
- I AM worthy of things that happen for me. Do I deserve the downsides? Sure! But who doesn't?! I mean, if you don't have to work for it what's the flippin point?!
- I don't care what you, or anyone, thinks of me. That is not to mean I'm totally insensitive, but I don't need anyone else to tell me who or what I should be. Married, single, kids, no kids, those are choices for to make and I cant wait ti make them.
- Life is short. Enjoy the one you have!! Take the vacation, make the decision to live for you. You can't please everyone, but you have to be happy with you!!

I recently decided to remodel my kitchen. It's a huge undertaking, and I've not even swung a hammer!! But, it's something I've been wanting to do for so long. So, I'm doing it. Bring it on!! I can't wait!!! But what I've done, for once, is to do what I want. When I want. How I want. (You have been warned about as if pics and stories!)

I am FINALLY, at 37 years old, going to do what is best for me. I have always worried what others would thing or say about me. But for once, I am putting myself first. LIGHT BULB!!! I am worthy of this, and I deserve it. It's not too late for me or anyone. Put yourself first and do what you need to do to be happy.

What's the saying 'If mama ain't happy, ain't no one gonna be happy!'

I'm mama, and I'm making myself happy!! You do you, don't let anyone change who you are. You are who you are and deserve being as happy as possible.